I'm a feminist, cyclist, hopeless romantic, dreamer, happy nihilist/existentialist, geographer, science-map-music-physics-computer-sci-fi geek, musician, nomad,artist (Painter), love the outdoors, gamer and sometimes sarcastic. Dark humor is fun, a broken heart is not. I'm quiet..yet opinionated. A loner who enjoys the company of good friends and good conversations. I am annoyed by people who think they are to "cool" for certain things.....like the ones who want to save the planet, but are to "cool" for the green movement.

Always up for an adventure. Nowhere is to far.

7th May 2012

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The Pains of Being Pure At Heart “Heart In Your Heartbreak” (by cvijetics)

"Take a look around when you're going down
Cuz you'll never feel so high
As when you hid in her arms in the sky and the world slept

And there's no use to say just how much it kills
When it still kills all the same
Every thought of her name like a hand to an open flame

She was the heart in your heartbreak
She was the miss in your mistake
And no matter what you take,
you're never going to forget
She was the tear in a rainstorm
She was the promise that you would've sworn
And no matter what you say,
it's never gonna come back

An ambulance goes by, and you wonder why
It never stops when you want it to
It never stops when you need it to take you away

And your friends don't understand that the world could end,
And it would feel no worse than this
Every thought of the look in her eye
Like a cold California sky

She was the heart in your heartbreak
She was the miss in your mistake
And no matter what you take,
you're never going to forget
She was the tear in a rainstorm
She was the promise that you would've sworn
And no matter what you say,
it's never gonna come back

And no matter what you pray,
It's never gonna take the pain away
And even if she'd stay you know it's wrong
And no matter what you pray,
it's never gonna take the pain away
Cuz even if she'd stay, you know she's gone

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5th September 2011

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You see, sorrow gets too heavy and joy it tends to hold you
With the fear that it eventually departs

Bright Eyes - June on the West Coast

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22nd July 2011

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Chad Van Gaalan - Graveyard

i laid you down
in a wooden box with lonesome thoughts
down in the graveyard

you came round
inside the pitch black of your coffin in the ground

you let your ghost
leak through the earth above your grave
and coast around

to find your love
that you left behind 
inside of this old town

who are you
who are you

so come on down
come and walk around and through the graveyard

come on by
come and slip and slide right through the ground

you’ll be close
back to your coffin in the ground
out by the sound
of your lover 
who’s been buried right beside you in the ground

who are you
who are you 

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22nd July 2011

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The end of the rainbow - Richard and Linda Thompson


I feel for you, you little horror
Safe at your mother’s breast
No lucky break for you around the corner
'Cos your father is a bully
And he thinks that you’re a pest
And your sister, she’s no better than a whore

Life seems so rosy in the cradle
but I’ll be a friend, I’ll tell you what’s in store
There’s nothing at the end of the rainbow
There’s nothing to grow up for anymore

Tycoons and barrow boys will rob you
And throw you on the side
And all because they love themselves sincerely
And the man holds a bread-knife
Up to your throat, is four feet wide
And he’s anxious just to show you what it’s for

Your mother works so hard to make you happy
But take a look outside the nursery door
There’s nothing at the end of the rainbow
There’s nothing to grow up for anymore

All the sad and empty faces
That pass you on the street
All running in their sleep, all in a dream
Every loving handshake
Is just another man to beat
How your heart aches just to cut him to the core

Life seems so rosy in the cradle
but I’ll be a friend, I’ll tell you what’s in store
There’s nothing at the end of the rainbow
There’s nothing to grow up for anymore

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22nd July 2011

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The Weakerthans - Plea From A Cat Named Virtute

Why don’t you ever want to play? 
I’m tired of this piece of string
You sleep as much as I do now
And you don’t eat much of anything
I don’t know who you’re talking to
I made a search through every room
But all I found was dust that moved 
In shadows of the afternoon

And listen, about those bitter songs you sing? 
They’re not helping anything
They won’t make you strong

So, we should open up the house
Invite the tabby two doors down
You could ask your sister
If she doesn’t bring her basset hound
Ask the things you shouldn’t miss: 
Tape-hiss and the Modern Man
The Cold War and card catalogues
To come and join us if they can

For girly drinks and parlor games
We’ll pass around the easy lie 
Of absolutely no regrets
And later maybe you could try 
To let your losses dangle off 
The sharp edge of a century
And talk about the weather, or 
How the weather used to be

And I’ll cater with all the birds that I can kill
Let their tiny feathers fill disappointment
Lie down; lick the sorrow from your skin
Scratch the terror and begin 
To believe you’re strong

All you ever want to do is drink and watch TV
And frankly that thing doesn’t really interest me
I swear I’m going to bite you hard 
And taste your tinny blood 
If you don’t stop the self-defeating lies 
You’ve been repeating since the day you brought me home
I know you’re strong 

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20th July 2011

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Let’s get fucked up and die..
I’m speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I’m already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I’ve learned to love the lie.
— Motion City Soundtrack - L.G. FUAD

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20th July 2011

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Bad Religion _ Faith Alone

What the world needs now 
is some accountability
we can’t buy more time 
because time won’t accept our money
if your soul needs love 
you can always have my pity
but it looks as though faith alone 
won’t sustain us no more 

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14th July 2011

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I can spend the night with you,
but can’t call you up the next day.
That’s why I drink so much,
to forget your touch
— Katie Davis

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27th June 2011

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The absence of God will bring you comfort, baby
And planning’s for the poor so let’s pretend that we’re rich
And I’m not my body or how I choose to destroy it
Folk singers sing songs for the working, baby

We’re just recreation for all those doctors and lawyers
There’s no relief for the bleeding heart
Because they’ll be losing bodies tonight

— Rilo Kiley - Absence of God

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8th June 2011

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I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone
— Motion City Soundtrack  -  Broken Heart

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8th June 2011

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I spent a week drinking the sunlight of Winnetka, California
Where they understand the weight of human hearts
You see, sorrow gets too heavy and joy it tends to hold you
With the fear that it eventually departs
And the truth is I’ve been dreaming of some tired tranquil place
Where the weather won’t get trapped inside my bones
And if all the years of searching find one sympathetic face
Then it’s there I will plant these seeds and make my home
I spent a day dreaming of dying in Mesa, Arizona
Where all the green of life had turned to ash
And I felt I was on fire, with the things I could have told you
I guess I just assumed that you eventually would ask
And I wouldn’t have to bring up my so badly broken heart
And all those months I just wanted to sleep
And though spring, it did come slowly, I guess it did it’s part
My heart has thawed and continues to beat
I visited my brother on the outskirts of Olympia
Where the forest and the water become one
And we talked about our childhood, like a dream we were convinced of
That perfect peaceful street where we came from
And I know he heard me strumming all those sad and simple chords
As I sat inside my room so long ago
And it hurts that he’s still shaking from those secrets that were told 
By a car closed up too tight and a heart turned cold
And I went to San Diego, the birthplace of the summer
And watched the ocean dance under the moon
And there was a girl I knew there, one more potential lover
I guess that something’s got to happen soon
Because I know I can’t keep living in this dead or dying dream
And as I walked along the beach and drank with her
I thought about my true love, the one I really need
With eyes that burn so bright, they make me pure
They make me pure
They make me pure
I long to be with you 

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25th May 2011

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I dreamt of a fever,
One that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
With heat to melt these frozen tears
Burned with reasons as to carry on.
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow
But I swear that I would follow anything
Just get me out of here.
And you get six months to adapt
Then you get two more to leave town.
And in the event that you do adapt
We still might not want you around.
But I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
But I know that that’s impossible now.
And so I drink to stay warm
And to kill selected memories
‘cause I just can’t think anymore about that
Or about her tonight
But I give myself three days to feel better
Or else I swear I’ll drive right off a fucking cliff
‘cause if I can’t learn to make myself feel better
How can I expect anyone else to give a shit?
And I scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
Just get me past this dead and eternal snow
‘cause I swear that I’m dying, slowly but it’s happening
And if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
Just take me there, just take me there, just take me there
And say, and lie to me, and say, and lie to me, and say
It’s going to be alright
— Bright Eyes - If Winter Ends

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18th May 2011

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suzannakopec:

If you walk away, I’ll walk away
First tell me which road you will take
I don’t want to risk our paths crossing some day
So you walk that way, I’ll walk this way

And the future hangs over our heads
And it moves with each current event
Until it falls all around like a cold, steady rain
Just stay in when it’s looking this way

And the moon’s laying low in the sky
Forcing everything metal to shine
And the sidewalk holds diamonds like a jewelry store case
They argue, “Walk this way, no walk this way.”

And Laura’s asleep in my bed
As I’m leaving she wakes up and says,
“I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave,
Baby, don’t go away, come here.”

And there’s kids playing guns in the street
And one’s pointing his tree branch at me
And so I put my hands up, I say “Enough is enough,
If you walk away, I’ll walk away.”
And he shot me dead.

I found a liquid cure
For my landlocked blues
It will pass away like a slow parade
It’s leaving but I don’t know how soon

And the world’s got me dizzy again
You’d think after 22 years, I’d be used to the spin
And it only feels worse when I stay in one place
So I’m always pacing around or walking away

I keep drinking the ink from my pen
And I’m balancing history books up on my head
But it all boils down to one quotable phrase:
“If you love something, give it away.”

A good woman will pick you apart
A box full of suggestions for your possible heart
And you may be offended, and you may be afraid
But don’t walk away, don’t walk away

We made love on the living room floor
With the noise in the background from a televised war
And in that deafening pleasure, I thought I heard someone say,
“If we walk away, they’ll walk away.”

But greed is a bottomless pit
And our freedom’s a joke, we’re just taking a piss
And the whole world must watch the sad, comic display
If you’re still free start running away.
‘Cause we’re coming for you!

I’ve grown tired of holding this pose
I feel more like a stranger each time I come home
So I’m making a deal with the devils of fame,
“Saying let me walk away, please.”

“You’ll be free child once you have died
From the shackles of language and measurable time.
And then we can trade places, play musical graves,
‘Till then walk away, walk away, walk away.”

So I’m up at dawn
Putting on my shoes
I just want to make a clean escape
I’m leaving, but I don’t know where to.
I know I’m leaving, but I don’t know where to.

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18th May 2011

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What the hell is your name
And can you explain this mess
It seems you’re playing a game
Where you only know how to take out the best

Cause if assholes could fly
This place would be busier than O’Hare
There’s proof in the sky
It’s as thick as our skulls yet it’s thinner than air

— Alkaline Trio - You’re Dead

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16th May 2011

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And so tonight to celebrate, I will, I will poison myself
Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning

So I close the door and rest my head on the tile floor
Sickness and sleep turning me cold
I’m still not sure
Is there some better place I should be heading towards?
Where the selfishly sick and self absorbed are welcome

— Bright Eyes - Padraic My Prince

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